. . sorry and goodbye . .

i know now, what love really means.. thanks for that someone that made me realize what love can possibly do to an individual especially when they are being tormented by it. i hate to say this but before that "someone" came to my life, i cursed "LOVE" for being so unfair to me... i loved and loved and loved and my heart keeps on breaking... i thought that is love.. always hurting me... and will always be.

but someone change it... all of my visions about love, he changed it... i hate to admit it but he definitely catch my attention at once.. at first, i thought that it's just my consequence telling that i should listen to it. but it turned out to be my heart speaking to my mind... and it turned out quite good. i'm so very thankful that "someone" came to my life and change my whole system of love.

now, definitely over you.. i don't want to be that person again loving some people who do not return it back. or leaving some note that they can't take it. they are so mean!! they just want people to love them so that they can have the advantages of being loved by another person and yet they can't return it as much what is being offered to them.

falling in love with you is the easiest part. forgetting you is the harder part. but moving on was the hardest part that i already surpassed. and now, i couldn't afford to go back at that situation, when you realized that you love me and not her.. i will never ever love you again the way i loved you long time ago.. you didn't want it and you blew it away and i will never give you chance again for i find my special someone that is longing for me... only for me.... goodbye,,..

undying love

longing for someone to be with you is like a dream that can never come true. just like always, dreaming is free. that's the only thing now that is free. right? every time i see you smiling naturally, it seems that you can laugh and smile without me by your side. maybe my friends are right, i have to move forward and find a new life that can never hurt me.

i remember the days back in the past when you're mine. loving me wholeheartedly and never let me cry a single tear. your warm and soft hands touch mine which is very cold when you 're not here by my side. you never leave me alone instead, you comfort me whenever i have problems. letting me state to you the issues that you and i alone can converse them. but that's before, WHEN YOU ARE STILL MINE..

it seems that you've change a lot now that you've find the right one for you. she's a very very lucky girl. for she is blessed that God has given her a guy that can appreciate and understand every single detail of her being. i don't have the right to cry, right? but still, FIRST LOVE NEVER DIES. you'll never be forget by this heart of mine. for you marked it deeply and can never be cured... FOREVER...

Tears Under The Rain

Last Night, I remembered my happiest moments with you. Laughing wholeheartedly as if tomorrow never comes. At the moment when I realize that your not here by my side, the smile in my face became tears. Tears that explain why am I so bitter with my past. Maybe I'm just scared. Scared to fall in love again with the person that can put my smile in the most beautiful way and at the same time, the person that make me shed a million of tears.

"MOVE ON, GIRL!!". My best friend told me. How can I? When my heart only longs for him. Every minute of the day, I always tell myself, "He's not the one for you, Girl. There's plenty of them! Don't just focus on just one guy who doesn't value your presence." But every time that I saw you looking at me, Gosh! all my efforts are drained! How can I be stupid?! Why am I such a stupid dumb?! Why in all guys out there, you're the only one that can cure the pain in my heart?!